Suicide hearts

Oh to sink so deep into your mysterious,

Ink so dark that every gasp a last orgasm of ecstasy

To fall into the cushion of your poison cherry,

Lips drawing me in, Im vapor in your torrent

Aligned maligned a pained and painted love,

Link enslaved emotions, twisted fantastic oceans

That do collide, conspired by our hearts

A suicide pact to set us free

To serve the master of betrayal

What can and cant will always and always cant will never be

The Devils kiss

Im sorry Momma

I was never gonna

But I always woulda

Even though I knew I shouldna

Ive always teetered on the edge

A dangerous game on a slippery ledge

For that what was forbidden

That attractive darkness, creeping, hidden

Always grasping for my open spirit

Ever caressing me deeper within it

I knew I had my love from you

But the Devils kiss is also true

This little boys innocent heart

Exposed to two from end to start

Are there 2 rooms within my soul?

I just pray the darkness doesn’t take full control

As deep inside I have the light

Its just Im tired of this constant fight

Cant the winged ones come and lift my soul

And free me from this blackened hole

Of where my light is shot and faded

To rise once more and darkness invaded

Yet just enough to keep me whole

But never enough for full control

I know the joy the bliss of light

Yet over my shoulder, just out of sight

Awaits the void without a care

And to my brightness its dark affair

With all the good that’s in the world

Whys it the bad things that draw my soul

Were all the same

In this game

Yet its by our demons were defined

And each our lives alone to find

Im sorry Momma

I never shoulda

I wish I didna

But I did

In the now

In the now

In the now Im pulled within

From futures past left with nothing

A beaded seat from which to yearn

For what was once and still to learn

I pray I stay with current thought

Instead of voyaging to constant naught

Oh to be a grounded tree

Forever in the now, so contently

No title

Tear me open scratch me bare

razor mesh to cleanse my skin

peel me raw without a care

Jubilation of exposure

Cracked, blistering, shredding, ripping open
. Rush of exquisite pain, violating its way out
. Sinew stretched, 
Blistering bones, 
metamorphosis through hell.
Burning orgasmic climax of raped emotions
. Split my spine with your ax. 
Grate my teeth with your double edged blade
. Crush my ribs
, obliterate me to dust
. The ecstasy of agony Is all I seek.

To the Mother

To the Mother

I stand before you, open, empty, ready.

Eyes that can not see, soul that can not be.

Now ready to see, now ready to be.

How can purity inflict pain yet feel no regret?
How can truth destroy and be fraught with fret.
Even a stopped clock tells the right time twice a day.
But a stopped heart lies broken and so it shall stay?
Im ready to receive the sun and the sky.
The black of the night, to live or to die.
Your vessel to use as to your will.
So my heart can be filled and my soul can be still.